Do u ever feel helpless at times, and there's nothing you can do about it?
It doesn't matter whether what kind a person u are, successful, old, young, when this feeling kicks in, there's nothing but feeling sorry for yourself...feeling sorry for yourself is the suckest thing that ever happen at least at my own POV...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Waaahhh
Since ages i've didn't update this blogs....emmm........just wanna say, i'm still alive and just checkout my blog for updates ...............
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Numb
I've got another approximately 2 weekz till i fly back to my hometown......and kinda homesick right now....huhuhuh....currently in Semenyih,Bangi at my eldest sister's place....
Mix emotional state....numb and sometimes bored with my life here......and when loneliness strike, i feel like im just nobody in this cruel mean world.....like there's no love in the air...just plain hate and ignorance....anything just taste bitter......i can't think straight for now.......my temper just blast like nuclear....too sensitive....to selfish.....hate to be direct, hate to be told to do this and that.......
My tummy is gettin fatter, plus facial hair that just made look terrible......for now....fuck!
I plan to meet my old friend, Raihan at KL, maybe this Saturday.....but need to plan it wisely especially time management.....its not like Kch where everything just so near to each other........hopefully i can meet him b4 i went back to Kch...
Sounds weird by i miss my crush not very much....just a little.......*sigh
Until next time...feel sleepy...good nite and buhbye...
Mix emotional state....numb and sometimes bored with my life here......and when loneliness strike, i feel like im just nobody in this cruel mean world.....like there's no love in the air...just plain hate and ignorance....anything just taste bitter......i can't think straight for now.......my temper just blast like nuclear....too sensitive....to selfish.....hate to be direct, hate to be told to do this and that.......
My tummy is gettin fatter, plus facial hair that just made look terrible......for now....fuck!
I plan to meet my old friend, Raihan at KL, maybe this Saturday.....but need to plan it wisely especially time management.....its not like Kch where everything just so near to each other........hopefully i can meet him b4 i went back to Kch...
Sounds weird by i miss my crush not very much....just a little.......*sigh
Until next time...feel sleepy...good nite and buhbye...
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Booyah
Pretend or not to pretend? Telling the truth or to be honest? Telling lies or not telling the true story? Is it matter? No??
Currently in Sg Petani........and by Saturday will fly back to Subang......and i might stay at Seremban for a while because having my interview there......hopefully i'll get through it....
Currently in Sg Petani........and by Saturday will fly back to Subang......and i might stay at Seremban for a while because having my interview there......hopefully i'll get through it....
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Holiday etc etc
So my parents decides that we all should take a vacation on 16th June......for 5 weeks....where to?
Penisular M'sia, and to be precise, N9,S'gor and Kedah.....visiting my 3 of my sisters....
Actually im not quite sure for this "too long" vacation...5 weekz? I can't even breathe without my pc and my internet ( kinda homesick thingy, nothing serious :P) for a week...... But the tickets already booked.....so i'm in no position to protest or to argue with their decision.....
Recent news......i should list it to make it short
1. My Monitor Broke Down
2. Sent my Samsung Digital Camera for warranty.
3. Because of Samsung digicam sent for warranty, my dad decided to gave me his Panasonic Lumix FS3 camera......yeeha...but wait a minute, my dad' wouldn't just gave me his loot,
4. My dad actually interested with Lumix DMC-G1 camera (half PNS, half SLR and yet still digital)....
5. Im running out of money.........LOL.....
Penisular M'sia, and to be precise, N9,S'gor and Kedah.....visiting my 3 of my sisters....
Actually im not quite sure for this "too long" vacation...5 weekz? I can't even breathe without my pc and my internet ( kinda homesick thingy, nothing serious :P) for a week...... But the tickets already booked.....so i'm in no position to protest or to argue with their decision.....
Recent news......i should list it to make it short
1. My Monitor Broke Down
2. Sent my Samsung Digital Camera for warranty.
3. Because of Samsung digicam sent for warranty, my dad decided to gave me his Panasonic Lumix FS3 camera......yeeha...but wait a minute, my dad' wouldn't just gave me his loot,
4. My dad actually interested with Lumix DMC-G1 camera (half PNS, half SLR and yet still digital)....
5. Im running out of money.........LOL.....
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Why i Hate Imagination
As Einstein said decades ago that "Imagination is more powerful than knowledge"....Really??? I've been asking myself do this quote really applies to everyone out there?
I hate my imagination.......or is it daydreaming? Who gives a fuck anyway...
Why i hate it so much? Everything I imagined are fairy tales that has happy ending in it......but in reality....it always turn into a pile of shit.....~!
Sounds frustrating? Yeah im frustrated......so what? Who cares....dont care if some people said im bragging about my life and im a loser? Who give a shit.......im just a normal human being......frustrated over some thing i lost or slipped away.....whether male or female.......we're just human.......
Should i let it go or should i fight for it?
I hate my imagination.......or is it daydreaming? Who gives a fuck anyway...
Why i hate it so much? Everything I imagined are fairy tales that has happy ending in it......but in reality....it always turn into a pile of shit.....~!
Sounds frustrating? Yeah im frustrated......so what? Who cares....dont care if some people said im bragging about my life and im a loser? Who give a shit.......im just a normal human being......frustrated over some thing i lost or slipped away.....whether male or female.......we're just human.......
Should i let it go or should i fight for it?
Thursday, April 30, 2009
A song
Does a song affect your mood? Is it because of its meaning behind the lyrics or it take you way back to those memories?
Whenever old song, it makes me remember things in the past......those moments, those memories.....aaaahhhh... i miss good 0l days.......especially my pre-teen days....no hassle, no commitment, just follow the flow and roll with it happily.....
Currently listening to Yellowcard - Only One.....take back the memories of 2005...miss those days.....
I use to be a hard rocker fan music......but now i just listen whatever that's catchy to my taste.....does this mean I'm growing older every breath i take?
p/s plz correct my grammar and spelling especially to my sis...help your brother to improve his english....tq....
Whenever old song, it makes me remember things in the past......those moments, those memories.....aaaahhhh... i miss good 0l days.......especially my pre-teen days....no hassle, no commitment, just follow the flow and roll with it happily.....
Currently listening to Yellowcard - Only One.....take back the memories of 2005...miss those days.....
I use to be a hard rocker fan music......but now i just listen whatever that's catchy to my taste.....does this mean I'm growing older every breath i take?
p/s plz correct my grammar and spelling especially to my sis...help your brother to improve his english....tq....
Untitled
Its been ages since my last post.....because of technical difficulty im having with my pc and my streamyx......so now I'm back and ready to rumble~!
Each everyone of us have a choice....whether to turn right or to turn left with have its own consequences....which also carries our own responsibility to our choice...
I realise that each of us have our on 'standard' that differs from person to person.....it depends on our wealth, social status, education level and lookz.....and the personality....the confidence.....etc etc.....bla bla bla...Its the 'standard' that makes people around us (frenz,relatives, or complete stranger) analyze, intepret and judge us the way we are......
What makes us a better person? Wealth? Lookz? Personality? Or all three combination?
Do we need to be perfect to be accepted? Do we need be flawless to be loved?
My situation right now...intense...just like pics above...enjoy~!
Each everyone of us have a choice....whether to turn right or to turn left with have its own consequences....which also carries our own responsibility to our choice...
I realise that each of us have our on 'standard' that differs from person to person.....it depends on our wealth, social status, education level and lookz.....and the personality....the confidence.....etc etc.....bla bla bla...Its the 'standard' that makes people around us (frenz,relatives, or complete stranger) analyze, intepret and judge us the way we are......
What makes us a better person? Wealth? Lookz? Personality? Or all three combination?
Do we need to be perfect to be accepted? Do we need be flawless to be loved?
My situation right now...intense...just like pics above...enjoy~!
Friday, March 27, 2009
NExT?
Tired of things happen again and again for the same reason.....do i have to change what i am now to be a better person? Does changing a bit of my personality will make any different? Or does it not?
As i grow older, i learnt a lot from my mistakes and currently improving.....and sometimes, unconsciously there are mistakes and my wrong doings that i only realize now after quite some time....which disappoint me.......a lot..
Getting bored with my job now.......not so thrill......too routine......and seriously.....without the internet, im just a statue.....fuck....hate every minute of it....plan to quit, but don't have any other job....besides, i really2 need money right now......the only solution, to endure it.....fuck.~!!
As i grow older, i learnt a lot from my mistakes and currently improving.....and sometimes, unconsciously there are mistakes and my wrong doings that i only realize now after quite some time....which disappoint me.......a lot..
Getting bored with my job now.......not so thrill......too routine......and seriously.....without the internet, im just a statue.....fuck....hate every minute of it....plan to quit, but don't have any other job....besides, i really2 need money right now......the only solution, to endure it.....fuck.~!!
Friday, March 20, 2009
Bekurun lamanya
Huyoo..kpd pmbaca setia blog ku yg rugged dan ensem, sorry lah lamak x update....bkn xmok...tapi xda masa glak.......kelang kelus masa, x merasa dah bulan 3.....
Mok type english, ku rasa mcm dah bkarat jak..kakar swak jak lah....maybe next time...hehhe
Mcm2 jak org ku temu.......kesah ku nang sedeh2 jak........maybe ktk org x sedeh...aku nak kenak merasa sedeh.......
Bila ku dh start bkrja tok, berat badan semakin susut, bulan 3 jak, dari 79.6 turun ke 77.4 rtok, 2.2KG ku kurang.....nak lucunya...ari marek ya ku makan aiskrim duak igek, adakah aiskrem peyumbang penurunan berat badan ku tok...huhuh..harap2 beterusan.......
No wonder saham ku semakin ari semakin tinggi, ada jak ompuan nyelin....ku duhal nmpk kurus ckit......hahahahahahah.....fucking perasan ku tok ehz....bangga2 jak lah masa saham gk nait...masa turun lak xda org medow...hahahah~!!!
Ada gk menempar palak ku gk, tetemu seseorang yg x hingin ku temu tek di area2 ku keja.....yahhh.....lam byk2 manusia, kenak mesti tetemunya, coba tetemu Rozita Che Wan ka, Fazura ka, bok layan.....hahahhaha~! Adakah cinta berputik kembali, in your dream baybeh...HAHHAHAHHA~!!!!
Mcm cerita ku tadik, walaupun ku rasa saham ku tinggi, tapi bila ku dah coba nak 'hook' seseorang tok, lalu jual mahal......ish2......maka mula2 kenal tang go hed jak......tang jalan jak......baru nak 'hook', lalu slow and x steady lalu action nya.....dhlah ku tok jenis cpt fed up and tempar dgn org kdk2 ya......coz aku tok jenis xpat di 'ignore'2 oleh kenalan aku......ku akan merasa panas hati yg teramat sgt.....tok suroh ku malas mok hook up dgn ompuan tok...jgn ku jadi gay udah...HAHAHHAHAHAHHA~!!!! Simpang meleykat 44.....
Ada sorg gk ompuan lain gk cita nya......mula2 jual mahal.....ku mmg minat nangga nya....tapi ada hari yg indah nya pandey molah muka sombong+fedup ngan aku........fuh...btol glak.....trus ku ignore.....then x lmk lekak ya.....pandey berik dscount indah......p ku dah ilang minat......hahahaha....sorry yer......!!!
Nang nasib ku mok hook up ngan ompuan mmg xda......nak mdh rupa xda...ada....complete package......hahahha.....p mmg jodoh ku blom ada kali.....ish.....nang lanji ku mok begerek ehz....nama gk org bujang....xpa...byk gk leh di survey and di coba.......try again next time.....
Marek ku dah isik SPA..3 hari gk check status, and tunggu nya antar surat confirmation, then just dudok temeunung nungg di interview....maybe makan bebulan2....tapi xpa.....bak kata org tua, keja perentah terjamin.......biasalah....org melayu.....malas nya nang x abis2......bkn nak anok...tapi hakikat...tok jak cara kita hdup...go hed jak lah.....HAHHAHAHA
Maybe xda gmbar dalam post ku kali tok...malas rasanya.....kelak2 lah.....rupa ku berupdate...dah x kdk bulan 1 riya kihak nak mati leput.....sapa nangga gambar ku masa ku gk nanam anggur mmg kembang kucup lubang idong nya......
Is0k keja gk......xbest glak keja ku knek tok.....tapi yalah...duit pun pasal, go hed jak lah....janji halal....dpt juak ku cuci mata...yesh...isok ari sabtu....ku mok prepare mata ku pakey isok.......nak slack nya ku tok kurang senyum...xpa...isok ku senyum sepuas2...mok ngeso gigi swing ku nak sweet tok...yesshhaaa...hahahaha....
Yajaklah....kelak2 update gk dgn gambar ku terkini.....adios manggos byebyeos...hahah~!!
Mok type english, ku rasa mcm dah bkarat jak..kakar swak jak lah....maybe next time...hehhe
Mcm2 jak org ku temu.......kesah ku nang sedeh2 jak........maybe ktk org x sedeh...aku nak kenak merasa sedeh.......
Bila ku dh start bkrja tok, berat badan semakin susut, bulan 3 jak, dari 79.6 turun ke 77.4 rtok, 2.2KG ku kurang.....nak lucunya...ari marek ya ku makan aiskrim duak igek, adakah aiskrem peyumbang penurunan berat badan ku tok...huhuh..harap2 beterusan.......
No wonder saham ku semakin ari semakin tinggi, ada jak ompuan nyelin....ku duhal nmpk kurus ckit......hahahahahahah.....fucking perasan ku tok ehz....bangga2 jak lah masa saham gk nait...masa turun lak xda org medow...hahahah~!!!
Ada gk menempar palak ku gk, tetemu seseorang yg x hingin ku temu tek di area2 ku keja.....yahhh.....lam byk2 manusia, kenak mesti tetemunya, coba tetemu Rozita Che Wan ka, Fazura ka, bok layan.....hahahhaha~! Adakah cinta berputik kembali, in your dream baybeh...HAHHAHAHHA~!!!!
Mcm cerita ku tadik, walaupun ku rasa saham ku tinggi, tapi bila ku dah coba nak 'hook' seseorang tok, lalu jual mahal......ish2......maka mula2 kenal tang go hed jak......tang jalan jak......baru nak 'hook', lalu slow and x steady lalu action nya.....dhlah ku tok jenis cpt fed up and tempar dgn org kdk2 ya......coz aku tok jenis xpat di 'ignore'2 oleh kenalan aku......ku akan merasa panas hati yg teramat sgt.....tok suroh ku malas mok hook up dgn ompuan tok...jgn ku jadi gay udah...HAHAHHAHAHAHHA~!!!! Simpang meleykat 44.....
Ada sorg gk ompuan lain gk cita nya......mula2 jual mahal.....ku mmg minat nangga nya....tapi ada hari yg indah nya pandey molah muka sombong+fedup ngan aku........fuh...btol glak.....trus ku ignore.....then x lmk lekak ya.....pandey berik dscount indah......p ku dah ilang minat......hahahaha....sorry yer......!!!
Nang nasib ku mok hook up ngan ompuan mmg xda......nak mdh rupa xda...ada....complete package......hahahha.....p mmg jodoh ku blom ada kali.....ish.....nang lanji ku mok begerek ehz....nama gk org bujang....xpa...byk gk leh di survey and di coba.......try again next time.....
Marek ku dah isik SPA..3 hari gk check status, and tunggu nya antar surat confirmation, then just dudok temeunung nungg di interview....maybe makan bebulan2....tapi xpa.....bak kata org tua, keja perentah terjamin.......biasalah....org melayu.....malas nya nang x abis2......bkn nak anok...tapi hakikat...tok jak cara kita hdup...go hed jak lah.....HAHHAHAHA
Maybe xda gmbar dalam post ku kali tok...malas rasanya.....kelak2 lah.....rupa ku berupdate...dah x kdk bulan 1 riya kihak nak mati leput.....sapa nangga gambar ku masa ku gk nanam anggur mmg kembang kucup lubang idong nya......
Is0k keja gk......xbest glak keja ku knek tok.....tapi yalah...duit pun pasal, go hed jak lah....janji halal....dpt juak ku cuci mata...yesh...isok ari sabtu....ku mok prepare mata ku pakey isok.......nak slack nya ku tok kurang senyum...xpa...isok ku senyum sepuas2...mok ngeso gigi swing ku nak sweet tok...yesshhaaa...hahahaha....
Yajaklah....kelak2 update gk dgn gambar ku terkini.....adios manggos byebyeos...hahah~!!
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